Hi, I am Jenny Weaver from Jenny Weaver Worships and welcome to God Today. I want to talk to you today about being abandoned and then found. I have a part of my testimony that I have recently been able to share with people. It is a part of my testimony that has recently unfolded. You know, my father was in my life when I was younger but he left our family’s life. He was actually put in prison and given a life sentence. I didn’t see my father for about 17 years. To be honest with you, when I was growing up I didn’t really want to see him. There was a lot of abuse that was going on in the home.
He was gone out of my life and I didn’t think about him. I didn’t have a care in the world about him. I remember getting the phone call one day, after being saved, and being in the Church. I got a phone call and it was some people from the hospital and they said, “Your father has been released from prison. He is on his deathbed. We need you to come to the hospital and make the decision about whether your father will live or whether you want to pull the plug.”
I remember telling them, “I am not going. I do not know that man.” I hung the phone up. The Holy Spirit grabbed my heart and said, “You need to go to Him.” I really struggled with that because my father had abandoned us as young kids. He left us when we were hungry. He left my mother to take care of 8 kids. So, I struggled with that abandonment. I did not want to go to him. He just kept pressing me, “Go to him.” I asked my husband, “Should we go?” And my husband said, “Yes, we need to go.”
We drove hours to see my father. I remember getting to the hospital room and I could see the hospital bed from outside. But, I was frozen. I was actually frozen in the hallway. I wouldn’t go in. My husband had already gone in. He was calling me, “Come on, come on. He is right here.” I was frozen and began to cry. I was shaking and I am telling you, the Lord began to do a work in me at that moment. Finally, after a few minutes of standing there with all these nurses and doctors walking around me, me crying and trembling in this hallway. I finally was able to walk in. When I saw my father lying there, he was completely out of it. He had machines all over his body. He probably lost 100 or so pounds. He was dying.
Every bit of unforgiveness, every bit of bitterness, every bit of being abandoned and rejected had fallen off of me. I had such love and compassion for my father. Watching him right there. I sat with him for 8 hours. I began to sing the Word of God over him. I began to say, “Daddy, I am here.” I never said those words. I had never called him daddy in my life. The Lord began to heal me; for days I would drive hours and go see him. On the third day, I walked into that hospital and my father was awake. The Lord had brought him back. I said, “Daddy, do you know who I am?” He said, “Yes. You are my daughter.” He told me three important things before he passed away. He said, “I love you.” I had never heard that. He said, “You are beautiful.” I had never heard that. And he said, “I am proud of you.” I had never heard that. I believe the Lord used that situation to help me deal with the abandonment and rejection I was brought up in.
If you are watching this today and you are going, “Man, I have dealt with abuse, I dealt with hurt, I have dealt with divorce, I have dealt with people leaving, leaders hurting me, leaders rejecting me.” The Lord wants you to know there is healing for that feeling or that identity of being abandoned. You can be found. The Lord found me, He cleaned me up, and He began to take me through this process of restoration and healing.
So, I pray for you right now, in the mighty name of Jesus, that the delivering healing power of the almighty God would hit you in such a way that fear would leave right now, the torment would leave right now. Abandonment and rejection would go in the name of Jesus. There is power in the name of Jesus for you today. I am Jenny Weaver and this is God Today.